More alive than you are

I'm excited because this is my first real post.

I want to talk to you about a sentence from Dostoevsky's "notes from underground"

It goes like this: "As regards myself personally, I have in my own life merely carried to the extreme that which you have never ventured to carry even halfway; and what's more, you've regarded your cowardice as prudence, and found comfort in deceiving yourselves. So that, in fact, I may be even more "alive" than you are"